Light from Darkness

The waves come crashing, momentary lapse in cognition where the world felt as one again...  it happens now and then, but to truly have that feeling, I haven't had it in such a long time, the peace, that feeling where you can breathe easy.  god I miss that feeling but most of all I miss the feeling of not being in pain, I can't even remember what it feels like anymore, to sit or stand and not feel pain from somewhere, it's a distant but fond memory.  I have been down an extremely rough road these past 6 months, I should actually be saying WE because my wife and I both have been through the most trying times of our entire lives, the past 6 months, I've had more scans, more trips to the doctors and hospital than the rest of my entire life combined, and it's not by a small margin either.  but I'm not here to harp on about how hard we've had it.  While it's been a very tough and crushing year, when I get those moments of clarity, of peace I grab on to it with all my might, I milk it for all it's worth and I get to a point where I can see the light at the end of the tunnel, it's usually when listening to music or when I talk it through with my beautiful life companion that's when it all makes sense to me and then the neurons start firing and the dots start to connect and I feel it all, I take it all in I take a deep breath and we fight through another day.  It makes me realise how the human spirit can conjure up such immeasurable strength from the depths of a deep dark chasm and create something magical from nothing, light from dark.  I've been through hell this year, I've felt the cold hands of the void clasp it's dark hands around my neck and try to drag me down, but it's from there that I gather strength.  I guess what I'm saying is that, you can't be beaten, not by your own mind, not when you use the darkness to conjure light, use that hardship as a tool to sharpen your mind.